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a young man preparing to propose to his bride for a time now, ideas filled his minds, and in his heart, he just want the best for his bride, to tell her that he loves her, to tell her that he is willing to commit his life with her and so on. He put in alot of effort, he put in his heart for his bride. However, In the midst of all the preperation, someone actually took the bride to the place where he is going to propose.. the young man heart stopped. Disappointment? sadness? is like a balloon that burst in the air. Although the bride still have a good proposal, however, everything was different.
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i understand how the young man felt.
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sometimes i wonder if love exist, if just sincerely caring and wanting the best for the person, being really considerate, with a pure heart, caring, keep thinking to give cheerfuly/ to give it all to someone else, basically love for another individual truly exist. Because this is what i have been carrying in my heart for as long as i believe : L O V E. Not just to love your love ones, to be able to put in effort for your family, bf/gf, or best friend. BUT EVERYONE, every human possible. But that does not come in easy/possible because LOve comes from God. and so we need to draw that from God and we are the channel.
love is very amazing. that is why greatest is love, that is why is the greatest commandment of GOd, that is why LOVE NEVER FAILS. if we are able to truly give that LOVE to people, i really believe this world will be a better place. Not because the environment is good or peaceful, and there is no problem. But rather, within our human rship.. we are able to truly LOok beyond ourselves and see others first, want the best for others..and so on.
God is truly teaching me alot.. sometimes when i thought a wave has ended, another wave came out in surprise and knock me down.. and like a little girl, i looked up to God.. why Daddy? ..
Thomas camme with doubts. Did Christ turn him away?
Moses had his reservations. Did God tell him to go home?
Job had his struggles. Did God avoid him?
Paul had his hard times. DId God abandon him?
No. God never turns away the sincere heart. Tough questions don't stump God.
He invites our probing.
Go to God with our questions.. we may not find all the answers, but in finding God, you know the ONE who does.
stand up again. 
God is still a good God. That and nothing change anything about Him, because He stays the same, forever the same. I love You Daddy.
