October 21st, 2009
God is faithful.
10 months of being at home, jobless, head bang, tooth decay, speeding Fine, car accident, lawyer/justice, my “amazing” sister with me etc. Well, I would love to think that I am filled with purpose/meaning, constantly reminding myself that okay, lets stay POSITIVE. But no doubt, all these worries of the world pressured me..
Have you tried 10 months of being at home? Literally at home There’s something that is not the right time to disclose yet. But, yes I felt very trapped, it affected me a lot. Like..really a lot. Anyway, last Saturday, i had an awesome 2 hours walk. My dear, he decided that we should go for a walk, fresh, wind blow, nature kind of walk - not shopping mall. hehe.. well, it started with just a simple walk, then there's climbing, then there's story bridge. My first time walking through the story bridge - the bridge is light up in sort of pink light bulbs all over (reminds me of the good thing a friend actually wrote before i came to Ipswich), then there's city, then there's city ferry, then there's home. I never thought i will finish any of these journey.. really, i kept complaining.. and i felt like "I CAN NEVER REACH THERE...I WILL NEVER REACH THERE..so lets turn back to our car please..." .. but my dear, he hold my hand and say "LETS BELIEVE WE CAN FINNISH THIS, WE CAN FINNISH THIS, You'll see in the end and know actually you can finish all these"!...
when i reach the bridge half way, as i look at the beautiful pink light, and the bridge.. the river beside, cars passing thru..i just ponder upon wow, i have walked so far.. looking back at where i started ..we have walked almost 1 hour ..i ponder upon my life story, i really do not know where i am going, but all i need is to CONTINUE TO WALK, STEP BY STEP, HAVING FAITH, BELIEVING IN THE ONE THAT HOLDS MY FUTURE. As i was sitting on city ferry (goodness i love it okay, u can actually go up and feel the breeze, look at the beautiful sight, super romantic for couples) Smiling.. and very content of this 2 hours journey with bus11.
I am very encouraged by the story of Joseph in the bible, where he had a dream of being a leader over his brothers, and what happen is that he was sold to slavery, then he was seduce by potiphar’s wife and was thrown in the dungeon, all together 13 years of sufferings.. and this is the favourite part, when he was in the dungeon with the cupbearer and baker of the king, both of them had a dream..A DREAM. Imagine how Joseph would felt? “yea right a dream, I once had a dream too..guess where my dream brought me? I was sold to slave by MY BROTHERS, thrown to dungeon when I do the right thing..leave me alone..”.. but Joseph, he faithfully love God and he said “do not interpretation belongs to God? Tell me your dream”..this is amazing. 13 years.. and everything was turn around and Joseph’s dream came true.
Be encouraged, GOD IS FAITHFUL !!!!
Feed and remain on HIS FAITHFULNESS J
