Be Still and Know That He Is God...

I wish i can play keyboard like so many ones. I had my grade 8 cert but that does not meant anything. I strive to practice that same old pieces for exam, scales that i practice a thousand times. I do not remember ppracticing other pieces besides exam pieces. I remember how i hated piano.. because my teacher would scold us so loud and so often.. and my dad would drag me there by force. Many times of wanting to give up. Finally after so many years, i got my cert. "yay".

but...

when i play in a christian setting with those chords, it amazed me how i "cannot" play. I felt abit stupid.. and many times i tried to explain to different ones again and again -  is not i do not want to "Give u the thing you wanted".. is because "this is what i got".. and this is what i can give. I can improve, but is not a one night thing.

i felt helpless. and pray so hard each time before i practice..that somehow MIRACLE would take place and Lord, a sweet spirit and pure heart to face each practice.

amen.