Be Still and Know That He Is God...

jelineee

If only I can shield you and protect you from all harm,

for sure I will.

If only I can fight all your battles for you and win them all,

that I will too.

If only I can cover your ears from all hurtful, degrading words,

I will not think twice.

If only I can make sure no evil will ever come near you,

of course I'll do it.

If only I can guarantee you a beautiful future with no regrets,

trust me, it's done.



But the truth is, I can't.

Because you will never, ever let me.

jelineee

how do you stop a heart from beating too fast?

how do you dry an ongoing flow of tears?

where do you buy some peace of mind?

what do you do to get some good night rest?


when all you can do is wait for the sun to rise..

when thoughts keep barging into your head, making noises..

when your worries feed on themselves and just grow-

..and grow and grow with the unfolding of the new day..


time stops.

as you hold every breath ever so dearly.


all you can do is wait.

because nobody owes you anything.

so with a very blurry chance of you getting any answers in the day anyway..

you stubbornly, stubbornly..

still..


*sigh*




Currently listening to: How To Save A Life - The Fray
Currently watching: time passing by..
Currently reading: (and deciphering) my thoughts..
Currently feeling: a mixed emotion of blankness and excessive heart pounding

What is a rough jacob compared to a dreamy edward.

I'm an edward fan myself, but something about jacob's character that makes me want to love him too.

I was pregnant when i read the twilight series, (heheh.. through ebook) and I really didn't like the part when Edward took off, and bella was left alone. But then again, Jacob was there to keep her company during the alive-yet-dead period of her life. I hated it, when bella was with Jacob, I kept hoping that by the next page Edward would turn up.

However, when I watched the movie, courtesy of the company (we were given a free pass to watch new moon! oh joy!), it made me appreciate Jacob's character.

I have to admit the gorgeous bod was one of the reasons (ahahha..he is so sexy!! i think everyone can agree!), but it was this part towards the end that made me love his character. It was when bella told him not to make her choose between him, and Edward. Because even if she (bella) loved him (Jacob), it has always been Edward. (ouch..).

But even If Jacob knows that; even if he knows even before bella said those words, he still pursued bella. He didn't give up on his feelings. Unlike Edward, he's not into sacrifcing-myself-for-the-sake-of-the-one-i-love.  He knows what he wants and he'll do everything to prove that he deserves bella, even though he doesn't stand a chance against Edward in Bella's heart.

And for that Hurrah to the stubborn wolf!

P.S. And yes, He is so gorgeous! everyone was screaming when he first took his shirt off! And everytime he appeared half-naked. wew!

Dispensable

Grabe jud. Dili na jud ni tama.

So gibulagan nako siya, and so after 5 days, in a relationship ka na agad.

Wow! How I wish mali ko this time.

When we were together halos dili nimu ichange imu status into "in a relationship".

Always naka "complicated".

I guess, It was the right move for me to break up with you.

It was a sane move.

But man! This really hurt.

I broke up with you because I thought you needed space; because I thought you’d be able to think clearly without me and our baby on your way.

And I was right. We were on your way.

You must have been really glad.

Gosh! Pde paligsan ug jeep one time lang.

please don't waiver...

Maybe i was looking for a real relationship, and you are totally incapable of having one. 

Maybe you care so much about things would impact your life, you forgot to think about how I'd feel.

Maybe It been a number of times i got really hurt, i guess it's about time that i say no to pain.

There's so many reasons... How come i ignored this before.

hmmm..

I must have really loved you. I believed in you, in us, in our so-called love. (which only exist in my head)

I still do. But I have to keep moving forward.

I guess when you’ve had enough, you’ve really had enough.

Like water, we all have our boiling point, and I guess I’ve reached mine.

I’ve always had this insane idea that one day things will be better, and you’ll realize that I’m important to you. And I was desperately hoping that time will come that you’ll become responsible and start taking charge of your life. But I guess, you’ll never realize someone’s importance when they’re not really important in your life. You can’t make oil out of water.

And so finally someone hit me in the head, and I’ve realized that it’s about time to stop ignoring all the signs and, accept that this isn’t going to work.

This isn’t worth all the pain.

LITTLE by little, i see each day how unimportant i am to you. What's also hurting is you don't seem to care about your child.

Little by little, i see each day that the only thing that making this work, is me.

Little by little, i come to realize, that the best thing sometimes is to give up.

Little by little, i am learning to accept the fact, that you just cannot trust the person who hurt you before.

little by little, i learn that even if you were hurt countless of times, he can still hurt you.

little by little, day by day, i realize that i just can't go on with you.

Goodbye....

forever.