Be Still and Know That He Is God...

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Anyway,ok ..i admit, i dun like Fasting. ok i can pray, but can someone else please do the fasting for me? wahaha.. i really can't fast. >< okok i admit, i dun have self-control.. ! >_< however, this time i ..i really want to do it. it was SO DIFFICULT. My mind kept thinking of FOOD. all kinds of food came to my mind... rojak most vivid.   yay, i am on track.

God never fail to show up again. He spoke to me as i pray and read the word.. yep Hebrew 6.. IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR GOD TO LIE. that verse truly shine out at times like this.

The Certainty of God's Promise

 ¹³ When God made his promise to Abraham, since there was no-one greater for him to swear by, he swore by himself,

    ¹⁴ saying, I will surely bless you and give you many descendants.

    ¹⁵ And so after waiting patiently, Abraham received what was promised.

    ¹⁶ Men swear by someone greater than themselves, and the oath confirms what is said and puts an end to all argument.

    ¹⁷ Because God wanted to make the unchanging nature of his purpose very clear to the heirs of what was promised, he confirmed it with an oath.

    ¹⁸ God did this so that, by two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have fled to take hold of the hope offered to us may be greatly encouraged.

    ¹⁹ We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain,

    ²⁰ where Jesus, who went before us, has entered on our behalf. He has become a high priest for ever, in the order of Melchizedek.

Yesterday after dinner, i on some nice piano pieces - typical minuet (J.s. bach), ave maria, Nocturne Op.9 no.2 (chopin) etc.. wow suddenly felt like "IS THIS home" ..  reminds me of My piano teacher house with 7pianos in her house-people come in and go practicing their pieces, my dad who loves piano cds on at home.. so relaxing.. ... very relaxing.. ahh...

i love it.

Next time must aim to have a "rEAL wOODen piano" , (not keyboard, not electrical, digital etc piano) at home!! must must must. lalala...

Time flies.. approximately 18 more days, i will say bye bye to my youngest sis. i will  miss her. House will be super quiet without her presence. is ok, next few more weeks after her, i will be leaving on a jet plane too. yay..

miss daddy

miss mummy

miss abimalek

miss happy

miss kakak

miss home

miss food ;p

miss friends

miss kingsize bed

misssssssssssssssss...............

soon soon..

nice story i ponder on.......

the famous J.S. Bach.. those who learn piano will defn know him! i remember since very young my piano teacher will want us to play his pieces. Once, when Bach was performing at the palace, his cello was tempered with. All the strings were broken except for the G string. Just when everyone was waiting for him to be embarassed. He played a beautiful melody  using only the G string. which is the very well known piece now "air on the G string" . The story tells me no matter how difficult life gets, You can still play out the most touching melody.

Be encourged !

For 30 years he would feel everything you and i have ever felt. He felt weak. He grew weary. He was afraid of failure. He was susceptible to wooing women. He got colds, burped, and had body odor. He feelings got hurt.

To think of Jesus in such a light is - well, it seems almost irreverent, doesn't it? It's not something we like to do' it's uncomfortable. It is much easier to keep the humanity out of the incarnation. Clearn the manure from around the manger. Wipe the sweat out of his eyes. Pretend he never snored or blew his nose or hit his thumb with hammer.

He's easier to stomach that way. There is something about keep him divine that keeps him distant, packaged, predictable.

But don't do it. For heaven's sake, dont. Let him be as human as he intended to be. Let him into the mire and muck of our world.

For only if we let him in can he pull us out.

I wish i can play keyboard like so many ones. I had my grade 8 cert but that does not meant anything. I strive to practice that same old pieces for exam, scales that i practice a thousand times. I do not remember ppracticing other pieces besides exam pieces. I remember how i hated piano.. because my teacher would scold us so loud and so often.. and my dad would drag me there by force. Many times of wanting to give up. Finally after so many years, i got my cert. "yay".

but...

when i play in a christian setting with those chords, it amazed me how i "cannot" play. I felt abit stupid.. and many times i tried to explain to different ones again and again -  is not i do not want to "Give u the thing you wanted".. is because "this is what i got".. and this is what i can give. I can improve, but is not a one night thing.

i felt helpless. and pray so hard each time before i practice..that somehow MIRACLE would take place and Lord, a sweet spirit and pure heart to face each practice.

amen.

10 months of being at home, jobless, head bang, tooth decay, speeding Fine, car accident, lawyer/justice, my “amazing” sister with me etc. Well, I would love to think that I am filled with purpose/meaning, constantly reminding myself that okay, lets stay POSITIVE. But no doubt, all these worries of the world pressured me..

Have you tried 10 months of being at home? Literally at home  

There’s something that is not the right time to disclose yet. But, yes I felt very trapped, it affected me a lot. Like..really a lot. Anyway, last Saturday, i had an awesome 2 hours walk. My dear, he decided that we should go for a walk, fresh, wind blow, nature kind of walk - not shopping mall. hehe.. well, it started with just a simple walk, then there's climbing, then there's story bridge.  My first time walking through the story bridge - the bridge is light up in sort of pink light bulbs all over (reminds me of the good thing a friend actually wrote before i came to Ipswich), then there's city, then there's city ferry, then there's home. I never thought i will finish any of these journey.. really, i kept complaining.. and i felt like "I CAN NEVER REACH THERE...I WILL NEVER REACH THERE..so lets turn back to our car please..." .. but my dear, he hold my hand and say "LETS BELIEVE WE CAN FINNISH THIS, WE CAN FINNISH THIS, You'll see in the end and know actually you can finish all these"!...

when i reach the bridge half way, as i look at the beautiful pink light, and the bridge.. the river beside, cars passing thru..i just ponder upon wow, i have walked so far.. looking back at where i started ..we have walked almost 1 hour ..i ponder upon my life story, i really do not know where i am going, but all i need is to CONTINUE TO WALK, STEP BY STEP, HAVING FAITH, BELIEVING IN THE ONE THAT HOLDS MY FUTURE. As i was sitting on city ferry (goodness i love it okay, u can actually go up and feel the breeze, look at the beautiful sight, super romantic for couples) Smiling.. and very content of this 2 hours journey with bus11.

I am very encouraged by the story of Joseph in the bible, where he had a dream of being a leader over his brothers, and what happen is that he was sold to slavery, then he was seduce by potiphar’s wife and was thrown in the dungeon, all together 13 years of sufferings.. and this is the favourite part, when he was in the dungeon with the cupbearer and baker of the king, both of them had a dream..A DREAM. Imagine how Joseph would felt? “yea right a dream, I once had a dream too..guess where my dream brought me? I was sold to slave by MY BROTHERS, thrown to dungeon when I do the right thing..leave me alone..”.. but Joseph, he faithfully love God and he said “do not interpretation belongs to God? Tell me your dream”..this is amazing. 13 years.. and everything was turn around and Joseph’s dream came true.

Be encouraged, GOD IS FAITHFUL !!!!

Feed and remain on HIS FAITHFULNESS J